Monday, June 30, 2008

Settling In With Feeling Uncomfortable

I've been really uncomfortable lately. I feel unsettled, agitated, and impatient. And I want to fix it. There is a lot of chaos in my life and in the past I could manipulate and control situations so that I felt better. Or at least that is what is in my memory.

But this time my unsettled feelings can't seem to be soothed. They keep rearing up and my stomach churns when trying to deal with them. And finally I have decided I can't fight it anymore. I'm uncomfortable. I'm unsettled. I'm scared. These actions causing these feelings are not in my control.

There is nothing to do but accept this limbo and wait for it to pass. It will pass. All things do. So today I will take care of myself and treat myself like a best friend. I'll tell myself nice things. I'll allow time to be alone. I'll sip a glass of wine on the deck while reading a book. Because inside I am well and whole.